Loneliness

Loneliness creeps in, a silent thiefStealing moments, causing griefA familiar ache in the chestReminding me, I am not at rest Memories haunt, like ghosts in the nightEchoes of laughter, now out of sightEmpty rooms, and silent hallsReflect the emptiness within my walls I try to fill the void with workDistracting myself, with endless clerical perkBut

One sentence, one moment, one big unravelling

My Saturday day was rather average. It comprised of a day trip to visit family and walking the valleys while being reenergised from the fresh air and idyllic Welsh scenery. During drive to the country side I was messaging my lover to pass the time. I thought things between us was heating up and getting

My bipolar episode

Murky thoughts swim against the tide Drowning in a dark whirlpool of ideas and illusions What is fantasy when reality is never clear Salty oceans sting the wounds of self destruction While the holy water purifiers my soul Moments of both tangled emotions purge extremes Confused what it all means The mist vaporous energy raises

Hurt

The people closest to me are the ones who have hurt me the most, caused the most emotional and physical damage. I imagine that’s the same for some people. Tonight I had a flashback of an incident involving my father abusing us, verbally threatening to kill me or one of my siblings when we were