Looking at my desires, unaware of its manifestations
Reeping what is sown
The heart set on the admirer
Desires unfulfilled, pain and hurt consumes
Clear the murky cobwebs
Spring clean my soul, mind and heart
Make way for the gift of abundance from universe
Nourishment will hold
Here are the things I want to tell you but I know you won’t care.
Firstly, I did truly adore you. I found you kind, warm and light hearted.
Because of this I was able to open up and also get over my lack of confidence.
I have a loveless marriage and stay for my children.
That’s a big price to pay but my children are my world.
Your last message confused me.
My last video I sent made me vulnerable as it was more intimate showing my face.
Your last message simple made me feel devalued.
I understand you were setting boundaries but the tone was very cold.
Something has changed and my gut is telling me something which I’m yet to understand.
Anyway, I’m hurt and that’s not fun.
Best we call it a day and leave things.
Heaven’s bounty where are you
Shine down the rays to light the way
A simple gift of love I pray
Lessons are forever in abundance
Tripping up and falling away
There the screams go unheard
Pick me up I say
Balance my deep inner core
Let clarity illuminate
Bestow a miracle for this day
I pray, I pray, I pray
Free falling through darkly spun
Web of unknown,
the chattering hawks and preying
blackened empty headless chickens: