Hello and Greetings

Welcome my friends.  After a rather harrowing  period which saw a downward spiral of suicidal thoughts and self hate I am taking the positive steps to heal. For years I have been suppressing my shame, pain, violence, debauchery,  promiscuity, vices and my fucked up family.  The energy taken to suppress and play normal has had a huge effect on me and I want to be free from the past.  Now ready to release my sins and heal, I thought a fabulous healing process would to be to finally share my inner thoughts and experiences. Over the next one hundred days I will expell one demon at a time…… xoxo

forbidden

Chasten from my sweet forbidden fruit

I lust your gentle hands

To caress this wise old warrior

And be blessed by this man

Your heavenly soul brightens with each new dawn

Eyes smile divine passion and has me torn

idolatry as the stars and moon

Desires float like dainty snowflakes

Dancing on a summers day

Magical is our time together

Yet forbidden is our lust

An end to unrequited love

I broke free today

Lifted the heavy burden that power of lust bewitched

The hex spell rises off from my broad brown shoulders

Vanishing like the dusty dawn sunrise’s

As airy thundering silence pulse through my veins

The mind eased, no more wickedness or wild wishes

Goodbye to fancy fantasy fetiches

Rainy night

Thundering breeze slaps the atmosphere

Fraught anxiety amplifies fears

No silence for this darken damp night

Those shadows grow, shaken with horrid fright

Gales rumble, whistling leaves tumble

I long the hear tender drops reappear

And the howling night to disappear

Afternoon rain

A soft scent so pleasant that I adore

Akin to a sweet heavenly spring downpour

Drifting by like dewy petrichor

The mystic mist is so much more

Its earthy aroma I cannot touch

Nor brave enough to try and clutch