Welcome my friends. After a rather harrowing period which saw a downward spiral of suicidal thoughts and self hate I am taking the positive steps to heal. For years I have been suppressing my shame, pain, violence, debauchery, promiscuity, vices and my fucked up family. The energy taken to suppress and play normal has had a huge effect on me and I want to be free from the past. Now ready to release my sins and heal, I thought a fabulous healing process would to be to finally share my inner thoughts and experiences. Over the next one hundred days I will expell one demon at a time…… xoxo
Ill Union
An ill union this confusion
My wanderer is a flighty fusion
Afraid to test their inner depths
My lover leaves me consumed with regrets
An ill union is my conclusion
This wanderer is an unsightly illusion
Was our time together a false fantasy
To fuel ego and nourish ones vanity
There can be no more nightly intrusion
Of this ill union drenched delusion
Reality is harsh that must be embraced
Deep fears one would rather not face
The wanderer keeps wandering
While the wonderful keeps wondering
Until a humble reunion
A reflective soul ponders the lies
People think that a liar gains a victory over his victim. What I’ve learned is that a lie is an act of self-abdication, because one surrenders one’s reality to the person to whom one lies, making that person one’s master, condemning oneself from then on to faking the sort of reality that person’s view requires to be faked…The man who lies to the world, is the world’s slave from then on…There are no white lies, there is only the blackest of destruction, and a white lie is the blackest of all.
~Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged

A little lie grows and grows
Pondering the lies
His egos flys
So inflated it touches the sky
Why do I listen to this guy
To defy
I should deny
Simply put, the overarching reason that we lie to ourselves is self-protection. We want to avoid potentially painful reality and the disruptiveness of truth in favor of maintaining a false equilibrium. In essence, we become accustomed to telling ourselves untruths because it’s easier.
A Psychological term known as “cognitive dissonance” is behind the reason why we lie to ourselves and tell ourselves untruths. When we experience cognitive dissonance, we feel an uncomfortable tension between who we believe we are and how we are behaving.
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Ryan Matters In part 1 of this series, we looked at a recent Rockefeller policy document calling for transformative change in food production and how…
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Being A Mother
There lays a tiredness inside of me
It aches and screams, yearns to be free
Pulsating worries vibrates up through my weakening spine
Knocking the depths of my crown and mind
Eyes so swollen and dry they no longer cry
The soul is shattered it cannot abide
Daylight passes so quickly as I sleep and weap
Bones sore, body heavy it yearns for sleep
Each new dawn is the same endless routine
Shall I be so brave and runaway to Aberdeen
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